[MUSIC] Hi Rebecca, my name's Greg Shields, I'm the psychiatrist on call tonight. I've been asked to come and see you. Are you able to tell me what's happened to bring you into hospital? It's a bit difficult to talk at the moment. What I'd been told by the doctors who saw you is that you took too much paracetamol and you called the ambulance. Is there anything you can tell me about why that happened? >> Had a headache. >> Okay, can you tell me a bit more? >> Had a fight with my mum. >> Okay. >> What was the fight about? >> She's on my back about getting a job. >> Must have felt pretty awful. What happened after the fight? >> I called a friend, didn't answer. >> Okay. >> Didn't call back, watched some telly. So tired, had a headache. Then I went to sleep, couldn't sleep. So, I took a tablet. [COUGH] >> Okay, and what was it that you took the tablet for? >> Had a headache, was tired. >> Okay. >> Pain killer, I was in pain. >> Okay, well, you took quite a lot of tablets. >> It wasn't working. Couldn't sleep. >> Okay and sometimes when people take a lot of tablets, it's because they want to end their life. Was that on your mind at all? >> No, I was just in pain and I just wanted to go sleep. >> Okay. Can you tell me a bit more about what happened with your mum? You said she was at your back about getting a job. >> She's a bitch. >> Okay. How did that make you feel? >> I'm just, I mean I know I've gotta get a job. Like I'm some kind of idiot, like I don't know that, or that I'm not good enough because I can't get a job or whatever it is, or you know, the day had been going okay and then, I felt like things were going okay and I was in control. And she just, fucking pushed me you know and I just >> Yeah, I can see how upset that's made you feel, It must have been really hurtful. >> She doesn't listen. And I did the things that Alex said to do, and I did journaling and I've been doing that. >> And when you say journaling, is that for your psychologist? >> Yeah. >> Okay, so that's really good. So just to clarify things, things were going so well, you said, yesterday, and you felt a bit more in control of things, but then after this scene with your mum, you just felt very out of control? >> Yeah, and like, I was just so, I was working hard at it. >> Yeah. So it doesn't feel like your mum's recognising how hard you're working? >> No. >> Do you get on with your mum at other times? >> It's up and down. >> Okay. And how do you feel about things at the moment? >> Pretty hopeless. >> Okay. Had you had any thoughts of ending your life? How about now? >> I just wanted it to stop. >> Wanted it to stop? >> Just wanted to control it again. >> Okay. So you had the argument with your mum and then tried to call a friend, but there wasn't anyone available? >>[shakes head]. >> Okay, and then what happened? >> Well, it's in the doctor's report, I was cutting. >> Okay. Did the cutting help at all? >> A little bit, but not it all, it just came back. >> Okay and did you tell anyone you were going to take the tablets at all or write a note or anything like that? >> No. >> Okay, had you been drinking or using any drugs at all? >> No. >> Do you do that at all? >> Not really. >> Okay, okay that's good. And well done for bringing yourself in here, I know it's not nice to be here, and you're feeling terrible but you were taking quite a difficult step calling the ambulance. How do you feel about being in hospital? >> I don't like hospitals. >> Okay. Well should we think about a plan for getting you home, do you think? Okay.
